Posted by johnLA on July 1, 2012, at 13:01:30
In reply to Re: remeron, ketamine nasal spray, ketamine infusion » johnLA, posted by Phillipa on July 1, 2012, at 12:31:36
thanks so much phillipa.
i think you are absolutely correct. me spending so much time in bed is detrimental to my sleep.
i think depression is habit forming in so many ways, especially in regards to behavior. i was always a 'bed guy' though very very active; gym, travel, movies, dinners out, etc., but also spending a lot of time in bed reading and taking a beautiful 1 hour nap every day after school. plus, the best part of bed which i will not go into here. ;) none of that now. would you believe i travelled to europe about 2 to 3 times a year for the past 30 years? i am scared to get on a plane now. ridiculous. the farthest i have gone in the past 2 years is down to san diego a few weeks ago.
a bit, or a lot, of agoraphobia and social anxiety. never had that before either. and, not much fight in me right now. i was always spoiled, but this has been different. just no passion about anything and the isolating is becoming very howard hughes-ish. i showered for the first time in about 5 days today. as a former jock i used to shower almost twice a day for work and then post-work-out.
finally, my asthma seems to be getting way worse since my depression hit. i haven't walked in over a month, but when i did i got asthma within minutes. now, i am using my nebulizer like 3 or 4 times a day. argh. i could only imagine doing my old workouts i did at the gym. i use to do pretty intense spin classes right-up to having my hip resurfaced a little over 2 years ago. maybe my body just needed an extended break. still, i need to find some kind of body movement that is gentle yet will burn some energy and get me back to some normalcy.
anyway, thanks agin phillipa. you are mentioning the same exact things my psychologist keeps telling me over and over! :)
also, thanks for letting me complain! i need to move my *rs* and i believe my mind will follow...
have a great sunday.
oh yeah, you guys having a rough time with the weather by the way? hope not.