Posted by Christ_empowered on May 15, 2012, at 16:27:20
In reply to Re: Approved for disability » Solstice, posted by novelagent on May 15, 2012, at 0:38:05
I didn't mean "crazed" in a terrible way, lol. Its just...odd. Before, I was basically The Village Idiot (unmedicated psychosis). Now, I'm much more lucid, a bit smarter, etc. etc....and I can get disability.
Anyway, my parents are looking into that trust thing. I'm thinking that I should probably stick w/ vocational rehab. Honestly, a lot of my problems aren't even psychiatric. I was treated like crap when I was un-medicated and exploited and stigmatized...it makes it hard to want to *DO* anything besides take a little bit of $$$ from the government, light up a cigarette, and chill the f*ck out. But I can't live that way.
I do have loads of college credits, so this plan to achieve self-sufficiency interests me. If I can find an online program (a non-profit one, obviously) that'll work with me, I think I could hve a 4 year degree in 1.5-2.5 years, depending on how many of my fluffly social science credits actually get counted.
I'm actually doing better now than I have...ever. I was a weird kid, an awkward teen who heard voices, and then disordered and crazed for a bit there. Now I take 1-2 meds, loads of vitamins, and I actually (gasp) function, to some extent. I have some social skills, I have the ability to learn things and interact well with people in a work environment, I've been properly socialized through Christian Rehab, so a lot of my "disordered" feelings and behaviors are a thing of the past....
...basically, I don't feel *good* about disability, but I feel like I can benefit from it. Make sense? I think that if I can get my sh!t together and just stick with the program, I can probably be autonomous by...I dunno...35?
For most people, that'd be a little bit ridiculous. But ocnsidering how far I've come, being autonomous with a long standing psychotic disorder plus all the "disorders" that used to plague my existence, is doing OK, I think.