Posted by b2chica on April 30, 2012, at 11:12:53
In reply to Re: b2chica - How are you today? » b2chica, posted by Dinah on April 30, 2012, at 9:09:48
Dinah. ive been on many combinations. zyprexa was always one that worked as needed. there were times that i took it longer but the weight gain (at one point 50lbs) was too much to take.
i was on zyprexa 5mg over 5 weeks and upped to 10 last week. still not much.
oh and i take back the crying thing. already had one bout this morning.
i just dont want to try anything new. i dont have the warewithall to sustain going through another failed drug.
i feel that i am a total let down to my pdoc. and cant even pick up the phone to call him.
i know he'd help. i think he would.
but i cant seem to make that call.
i'm afraid he'll change my meds,
i'm afraid he wont
i'm afraid he'll give up on me.
i'm afraid he'll view me different as a failure to his career.
i dont have the, like i cant stand up without a crutch and there is only one crutch and its just out of reach.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."