Posted by jedi on March 5, 2012, at 20:27:45
Hi Guys, Well I'm back on Nardil after being off for several months. I had tapered very slowly down to zero, then felt great for a few months. Unfortunately about 3 major life stressors piled up to precipitate another bout of major depression. I tried upping my clonazepam to 2mg for a while but that didn't work. So I quickly titrated the Nardil up to 120mg. It was still almost a month of hell before it kicked in. I'm slowly getting back to my lowest effective dosage of 60mg. Currently at 75mg of Nardil and .5mg of clonazepam.
I have stopped Nardil 4 or 5 times since my first major depression hit about 14 years ago. Every time I have quit, it has felt great at first, but eventually the major depression has returned. I am one of the lucky ones on here that Nardil always works when I restart it. I had saved up about a 3 month stash when I quit, so getting up to 120mg and knocking back the major depression was only a matter of time for me. It is still scary as hell when you just want to die every day. The pain was intense.
It was Albert Einstein who said,Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results. I plead guilty! I'm a lifer on Nardil but just haven't accepted it yet.
I am feeling 1000 percent better since being back on Nardil about 6 weeks. I'm still having some motivation and procrastination problems. I think this is mostly a learned response from fighting depression for so many years. When you feel really bad, it is so easy to put things off till tomorrow; especially if you are self employed as I am. After years of this, it becomes a habit and some things don't get done until they become an emergency. This really increases the stress level in life, and really does not help atypical depression at all! I think I may need to seek some CBT to beat this learned behavior.
Be Well All,
Jedi
Jedi
Treatment resistant, atypical, double depression with social anxiety.
Nardil + clonazepam
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