Posted by Christ_empowered on January 17, 2012, at 0:36:25
Its a strange kind of nervousness. Like I'm raw, somehow; uninsulated. That's strange because I'm on a whopping 30mgs Abilify daily. That was to keep the agitation down. I dropped the 200 Lamictal a little while ago. Now my face is turning red all the time, I'm anxious in public, and I feel...well, I feel a little nervous. Being in public is almost impossible.
So, what should I do? I'm not supposed to see the shrink until February, but I'm anxious NOW. But I don't know that I should medicate everything away. She said no to an antidepressant before, and I dropped the Lamictal.
I don't know if I should even treat this. I was in 23 hour lockdown a couple years ago in jail for over 7 months (I got those charges expunged, thank God). That screwed me up. Then 1 year of hyper-socializtion in a Christian rehab program. Then 1 more year of social isolation, living alone in an apartment in a dusty, small southern town. Now, I have almost no social life, but I do actdually see and talk to people and I don't freak out as much.
Still, I don't want to be a masochist and suffer and suffer. I see a counselor, but its one of those relationships where they throw feel-good platitutdes at you and hope you get better.
I don't know. Benzos are out, because the public health shrinks can't prescribe them and I don't have the $$$ to see a private practice shrink who could hook it up. I was thinking Remeron, since it would help me set (and keep) a bedtime. But I'm already overweight. Celexa helped before, rather quickly, too.
HEEEEELP!
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