Posted by floatingbridge on September 23, 2011, at 0:29:08
In reply to Re: the 'feel' of Abilify, posted by Christ_empowered on September 22, 2011, at 22:25:56
> hello again. The people at the hospital never explained what kind of brain damage I had. I was mugged and hit on the head with a pipe (who the hell carries a pipe around with them, anwyay?) and then ended up in the mental hospital about 24 hours later. They did a brain scan while I was sedated (I kinda sorta almost woke up for part of it).
>I am sorry CE. What an awful event.
> I woke up in a cold room with white walls, with some angry nurse looking at me. She told me I was "supposed to be a
vegetable" and that I "probably had an IQ of 75." I didn't
know what to say or do, I just started screaming and grunting. So bizarre.What a harmful jerk she acted like. She or no one else
understands how traumatic brain injuries can manifest. She sounds like she had her basic knowledge and that maybe you waking up inconvenienced her, like she was just planning on taking a cigarette break. Perhaps, l having been made vulnerable by the assault and injury, her words struck you more deeply than her ten cent opinion merited. Please try and toss her out of your head. She just had no idea what she was talking about.A doc did something similar. My husband broke his neck body surfing. At the hospital, he was very scared, his head braced against movement, and he was losing feelingnin his left hand and arm. The great and powerful Oz/doctor walks in and when my husband asks this doctor about what's
happening, the doctor says, 'oh, we're just waiting to see what else goes.'. Like loss of function. Yeah, my husband started going into shock. Fortunately, a nurse was there and
stroked his arm, told him he was going into shock, and told him he was goingnto be alright.And he was. Completely. He regained all feeling. Stupid,
harmful doctor!>
> Anyway, back to the present. The Abilify works for me the way any good antipsychotic/neuroleptic/major tranquilizer
should: I calm the hell down and I can think straight. 30mgs was way too much, but this 15 business is feeling about right.
>Yay!
> I take antioxidants in the hopes that they will prevent TD. Lots of taurine, vitamin E, so on and so forth. There's really
not a whole lot else I can do.Well, I'm gonna go with Scott's post here.
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> Back to the brain damage. It strange, when I think about;
its almost like the brain damage used to affect me, but now,
with some meds on board, I'm OK. Maybe that's the idea behind "transcendent intelligence," I don't know. My therapist a couple years ago wrote in his notes about how I was "wide-eyed" and all but called me stupid in session a couple times.Well, pooh to him. Besides, you must have been very young.
I looked up transcendental intelligence and could find very, very little of anything meaningful. Does it mean? I have an idea that it means, maybe, a wisdom or co-wisdom it was termed of a religious source. I think it points to your (well what I see as) your philosophical abilities.
> My last therapist, who is better educated and religious, told me I definitely "wasn't average" when it came to intelligence and that I should get an intellectually stimulating job. My, my, how times change.
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Yes, and you have wanted that yourself as well. I recall
when there was pressure on you not to consider nursing as a career because you'd be wasting your intelligence (not my opinion, nursing seems to be great work), but maybe you could use that pressure, wrong-headed as it might be about
nursing, as more evidence of your intelligence and help you give that therapist and that nurse the boot. I would consider them just flat out wrong. That's my take on it. You're getting your game back.
I dig a pony.
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