Posted by floatingbridge on May 26, 2011, at 19:08:02
In reply to Re: am I even depressed? » floatingbridge, posted by SLS on May 26, 2011, at 5:55:28
Scott,
I will reread my letter--let it cool. Very sage advice. You probably remember I can be very reactive and I really (really) work on pausing and developing wise patience.
I feel like, well I thought we were working the same equation with the
same rules, but our working answers are so different. Worse is the sensation that don't understand him any longer. I mean, we still have affection for one another--I started seeing him three years last month, just about when I joined babble. He's helped me tons, so I feel very sad, actually.And I don't understand about maoi's. Yes, they are dangerous. But why is asking for one like asking for crack? If he feels it isn't the right treatment, then explain why. I can't seem to go med-less. I have waited months for treatment. I just threw in the towel on snri's. Twelve years is enough.
Is there something about, say parnate that is truly more harmful than a more selective AD? I really don't know.
The emsam at 6mg is no cure. But I have less vegatative symptoms (is that a real term). I wake up easier, my mind still gets completely over run, but I am sharper. I am quicker to anger, but that's the point of my therapy: feel anger, learn to be skillful, know it won't destroy me.
I hope I can work things out. Three years is alot of observation, knowledge, and just time together.
Thanks for your calm response and perspective--and the jokes, too :-)
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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