Posted by roscopeeco on January 9, 2011, at 9:18:05
In reply to Re: The Nardil appreciation thread, mantus, posted by roscopeeco on January 9, 2011, at 8:58:51
I forgot to mention this mantus. My sex drive is coming back as well. I know this might be too much information for some, but I don't have any delayed orgasms. I have also found myself smiling more and interacting with classmates at school. I will admit though that the depression is always there to varying degrees. Getting to remission has always been stepwise with me. I get better in each aspect at varying time frames. It has never happened all at once. I have never been severely depressed and woke up one day and all symptoms were gone. Depression is like sweat covering your body and little by little it begins to evaporate and turn into vapors that vanish in thin air.
It is very important for you to do something when you get the urge. For instance if in a week you get to urge to watch a movie, go watch a movie. Don't think to yourself that this urge is only a blip on the radar screen and I will be depressed after this urge passes. Those little urges are our brains getting healed. If we deny those urges then we reinforce the sickness. I sometimes get urges that only last for a couple of hours, but I try to act on them. To me they are like building blocks. The urges remind us that we once enjoyed that activity.
I can tell you this because I have those small urges now. Before I had no urges. Example. Yesterday I ate breakfast with a friend because I felt like it. I had a fairly decent time and will do that again. Another urge I had was to watch "true grit" at the movies last night. Before I would have never had the patience to sit through a movie for two hours. I sat through it and for two hours forgot I had depression. A month and a half ago you could have told me that I won the lottery and I wouldn't care. Now you tell me the same statement and I would be elated. It is small but significant things like that make you feel like you are moving in the right direction.
If you want to explain your depression to me more feel free. Comparing depression is useful. It can give people turning points or positives to look for.
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