Posted by PartlyCloudy on January 4, 2011, at 8:19:34
In reply to Re: Serious question. No offensive replies please. » PartlyCloudy, posted by medamorphosis on January 4, 2011, at 3:06:13
> Thanx! Your post is totally relevant! I need to stop drinking and probably pot smoking too. Had no pot yesterday and ive just woke after 6hrs sleep- thats MY sorta sleep as I normall top 10hrs or alot more. Im still drinking tho. Feel like id be depressed EVERYDAY without it. My ADs seem to work better with drink and its like another med- like an extra benzo if you like. Needs to stop I know but the world is sitting on my shoulders at the mo. Money problems being the worst thing. But my pdoc wont even give me antabuse untill im 4 weeks off! I said just give it to me so i cant drink! but no, 4 weeks sober he said. Anyway, ive heaps more to deal with- debts (personal and legal), being isolated, avoidance of everything at present (ready to be put on the streets). A load more related stuff. But thats for me to deal with. Been like this for over 2 yrs. Cant take much more.
> 12 steps is sh*te for me too. If only i dared say my true feelings about AA! Id get banned lol.
> Luckily I DO have one self help group to go to which i must stop avoiding- an SA group. I plan to restart goin this Thurs. Been better than any AA meeting ive ever had!
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> medYeah, I understand where your doctor is coming from with the antabuse. I don't think it works unless your system is alcohol free to begin with (otherwise you'd start puking from the get-go). And AA is held up as the gold standard of support groups. I must have RUN from scores of meetings having felt like an utter failure. There are alternatives out there that your doctor might not be aware of, that are still based on abstinence from alcohol but are not 12-step. I found a women's group that I used along with one-on-one therapy. (I've been sober 5 1/2 years. So not an old timer, but the holidays this year were not a trigger for me, woo hoo!)
I hear where you are coming from with your personal problems, Med; I am sorry for them and I understand. I know that taking drinking out of the equation will not make those problems go away, just as it didn't do it for me. What it did do, though, was eventually make me better equipped to deal with my life's issues.
If you ever want to Babblemail me instead of talking "out loud" on the boards about this stuff, I'm more than happy to.
p.s. I speak Brit as I lived over there for 7 years and have scads of family there too.
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