Posted by Maxime on November 14, 2010, at 17:59:41
In reply to Re: Why do I feel like jumping off a bridge?, posted by Maxime on November 13, 2010, at 23:14:19
Sundays are always the worst days of the week mood wise for me. Since I have been so down lately, today was almost unbearable. The one thing that kept me going was supportive Babble Mails from people here on the board. Not many about the crap that is on the Social Board right now, but just really caring messages ... and one insanely funny one that caused me to snort with laughter. Yes, I am very lady like.
Tomorrow I work. I hope it will go better than on Saturday when everyone could tell how bad I was feeling. A few of them hugged me after the class. I have to hide how I feel. I should be able to do that since that is how I was brought up. I need to be as professional as possible. I was professional on Saturday but my pain and depression showed through. I just told them I was having an off day. If only they knew.
I'm still really suicidal. Physically I feel like crap today, aches and pains, hot and cold.
I don't want to kill myself around the holidays.
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
poster:Maxime
thread:970034
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20101107/msgs/970239.html