Posted by Brainbeard on November 8, 2010, at 15:47:09
Saturday, I took 2.5mg of dextroamphetamine, Dex for short,in the morning. The drug seemed to have a mild, pleasurable effect, helping with motivation and concentration for several unpleasant chores.
Sunday, I took 2.5mg in the morning and in the afternoon. I attended a Church service and was moved to tears several times. I experienced the service as a very personal message from God to me, seeing all kinds of meaning and interrelatedness.
In the afternoon, the drug both helped with chores and made me more irritable at times. I know irritability can strike me when I'm on Concerta/Ritalin.Today, Monday, I went to work on Dex - 2.5mg twice. Like I have noticed before, Dex slowed down my cognitive functioning at work. It's like I'm concentrating on too many things at a time - or perhaps, I can't concentrate on more than one thing, while I have to keep track of several things simultaneously.
My social functioning was impaired too. Socializing all of a sudden felt unnatural and forced. I was just getting the hang of socializing with colleagues and friends. I made spontaneous contact anyway, but couldn't enjoy it.
I don't know wether these are just start-up side-effects. Ihave heard long-term users mention anti-social side-effects. Slowed down cognition seems pretty bizarre. Maybe my brain has to get used to the stuff.
Tonight, I find myself rather irritable and unhappy. Anhedonic. Is it because the Dex has left the building? Or are it the very lingering effects of the drug?
I think I'll move on to 5mg twice a day tomorrow. Or 2.5mg three times a day. Or four times.
Current meds: clomipramine 225mg, fluvoxamine (Luvox) 50mg
As needed: bethanechol 25-50mg, oxazepam 5-10mg
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