Posted by Shyan on August 22, 2010, at 19:43:16
In reply to Re: Brain Fog!??, posted by polarbear206 on August 20, 2010, at 17:24:20
Hey,
I still havent gone to the Dr.s. I actually missed my appointment because I was too exhausted to get myself out of bed. How pathetic is that.
I'm going to try to give more details on this. Hopefully I can.
As of right now I am not working. I have had troubles with working all my life due to the depression and anxiety. I basically have felt incapable of doing anything over the past 12 years. I have no motivation, or enthusiasm to do anything. Just the thought of work scares me. I am also living at home with my family. (depressing atmosphere) I am 27, so that is very hard on me. Knowing that I have not gotten anywhere.
I usually go to sleep around 2-3am. I will toss and turn for at least an hour before falling asleep. I'm told I have night terrors terribly. I'm woken up several times a night from family members telling me to be quiet. (Apparently I scream as loud as humanly posible, using very vulgar words.) I never have any recolection of them waking me. I will even have conversations with them, saying "Of course I'm awake now, can't you tell?" But never remember. I've woken up a few times from punching things (computer monitor/walls etc). So I don't think I'm getting decent sleep, when I do. Also on the rare ocassion I will remember my dreams, they are always horrible. Someone is always dieing, or getting hurt. I'm dieing or getting hurt. Very Brutally.
I usually wake around 1pm the following afternoon. I get up, make cereal, have a smoke and I am so tired and unmotivated to do anything so I will go back to sleep for a couple hours. Then just waste my night away watching movies, taking the odd nap again, playing on the computer, stressing and what not. My life is very unproductive and depressing, as you can probably tell.
I take my meds, (Metoprolol 25mg twice a day, Effexor, which is 187.5mg not what i recently thought it was in my last post. I also take .5 of clonazapam. I take all of these at the same time. Around 1pm when I wake.
My eating habits usually consist of two bowls of cereal throughout my waking hours. I'm a fussy eater and am usually too lazy to make anything that takes time. (I feel weak, dizzy and unsteady, too exhausted) I don't get out too much. When I do it's once a week.
I just got out of a relationship a couple weeks ago, I was eating and sleeping better and did feel somewhat of a relief from a lot of my symptoms. However, it didnt work out!
Wow, it's really depressing to have just written all of this. I try and ignore my life as much as posible, as it's very embarrassing for me.
Hypersomnia does sound like it could be it. I'm just not sure what I can do about that. But I will definitely read and look into it some more.
I hope that in time, my life will consist of energy and motivation of some sort. I'm tired of feeling this way.
Thanks for listening.
poster:Shyan
thread:959196
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