Posted by europerep on August 20, 2010, at 3:49:20
In reply to Too depressed for friends or a relationship?, posted by julie1977 on August 20, 2010, at 3:27:01
>does anyone else feel this way?
yes, totally! I don't know how it affects you, you are ten years older than me (I guess), and it's probably something totally different at these two ages, but I totally feel like that.. I know psychologists would want me to think differently, but at this point in time, I don't even care that much for friends.. for a friend to become really close, it takes a long, long time, and all the things that would have to happen until then (having a good time together, doing things that are fun, or also helping someone else when that person is in difficulties...) I am absolutely incapable of..
I wish I could find a girlfriend who loves me, but, here too, I am not only not able to do all these things that a relationship consists of, but the person I am now is not the least bit interesting anymore.. and I do understand that. I used to know how to talk to people, and I used to be able to make people laugh just by being me, now I am just empty...what is it that makes it impossible for you to have either of these things?
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