Posted by inanimate peanut on July 10, 2010, at 19:11:32
In reply to Re: Nortriptyline day 1, posted by ed_uk2010 on July 10, 2010, at 18:16:15
I agree that my med regimen is one total mess. I definitely need to stay on the Parnate. That is the only thing I am certain of on my med regimen. I think I need to stay on the Geodon since I'm pretty certain it's what's controlling the mixed states and it may have a barely perceptible impact on the depression. I would honestly be willing to try to go without the Geodon except I have a strange thing that once I go off a med, it no longer works for me anymore, so I don't get to experiment like that. I would like to decrease the Geodon as it's making my hair fall out. Mirapex, although competing with Geodon, does help my motivation and anhedonia some, so I am slow to give it up. The rest of my meds are ridiculous-- seroquel is for sleep but I don't even think it works anymore because I went off it for awhile and things generally don't work when I go off of them and then back on them. Perphenazine is for sleep. Topamax is for binge eating, which xenical wouldn't necessarily help with. We just added amantidine, so maybe we'll be able to get rid of the topamax. I'm not sure if it even works anymore. I don't think lamictal works anymore but am too scared to get off of it just in case it is doing something. I've just burned myself so many times in the past by stopping a med and then not having it work when I went back on it that I stay on everything for fear of what they might have been doing won't work again if I go back on them. AAAAAAHHHHH! It is so frustrating. I just have to keep piling meds on meds because I can't risk getting rid of any meds because I have very few options left and I'm only 30. I did have a recent EKG which was fine. I can't even get any tests for the nortriptyline because my doc refuses to prescribe it. I have to hide it from her for risk that she'll stop prescribing parnate if she knows I'm on it. She thinks it's too dangerous despite the lovely journal articles I so carefully prepared for her. I think it's dangerous too, which is why I now have permanent BP cuff marks on my arms and readings every quarter hour for the past 3 hours after taking 10mg Nortriptyline. I hope the blood tests aren't too important, because I have no way to get those. Yes, I know I should do this under the care of a psychiatrist and that would be lovely. I made a deal with myself that I would try all the other ideas with my psychiatrist first and save this as a last resort and here I am. It's my responsibility now. Yes, I understand that my entire case is a "what not to do" of psychiatry. I really appreciate your concern, so I hope that this doesn't come across like I don't. I'm just frustrated and don't know how to make it better. If the nortriptyline helps me sleep and I can at least get off the perphenazine and seroquel, that's at least one step. I'm just so frustrated with it all right now. Thanks for caring, though. I appreciate it.
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