Posted by qbsbrown on March 29, 2010, at 18:00:04
In reply to Re: thanks ed, posted by qbsbrown on March 29, 2010, at 17:41:27
It's pretty sad when your mental health history comes down to benzos.
On benzos in 05, came off abruptly, found out about benzo wd, and went on valium, and moved to china. During my valium wd, i was diagnosed ocd, as many in wd do. The AD may have saved my job, but made me very irritable and depressed person. So i have racing thoughts from the benzo wd, and irritability and depression from ssris, so of course DXed bipolar. Run through the gamet of over 30 meds ugh.
Now i am much worse off, and i don't know if any can help me.
While teaching in the middle east a while back, i was on tons of benzos, stimulants, booze, mood stabilizer, ambien, occasional AD, occasion antipsychotic, ended up hospitalized obviously.
The dr there cold turkeyed me from stimulants, ambien, and wanted me off high dose valium in one week. I was left on an AD, some depakote, and some zyprexa. it was a crazy 5 days to say the least, and the flight home, but when i was home, i was totally sane, and could function like a normal person. Only 5 days later, i was having bad racing thoughts, which i thought indicated bipolarity for sure, not thinking it could be part of withdrawal, and began the medication wheel again, and here i am.
Crappy story, and sorry for having to share.
Brian
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