Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 20, 2010, at 0:58:50
Sometimes I think what's the use of writing something that's not going to get me anywhere.
I have to wait till my doctor's visit, I just have no "drive" or "motivation" my mind is just "flouting" around and moving from one thought to the next feeling just no energy. I walk around and just stare into space. Smoke too many ciggarette's because I'm bored, and I would think nicotine would at least give some stimulation, it's really nasty because I hate to think of what my inside looks like. Maybe I should start on the gum....but i'm too poor for that.
Will someone just be my friend, it's hard to keep relationship's because it requires normal conversation....i'm not good at making friends
There are day's just lay in nothingness, and see life so simple. I want to function. It's like this, I go and work out, and stay on the treadmill for a while, I usally don't do it when I feel in the "pitts" like a metaphore for it would be trying to move in a lake of thick oil, with the weight pulling you down, and it's much diffculty to move. That's how my mind is sometimes, it thinks it can't go...yet it can, after practice and practice but it's hard because of this "thick oil" that makes life slow.this video show's what I mean:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1Ij3rV_ZS4
That's all...I do not know what else to putYou have a great day, because know that everyday can be an oppurtinity for something to happen.
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