Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 6, 2009, at 19:43:26
In reply to Re: What should I do?, posted by West on October 6, 2009, at 15:04:43
As long as I live here, stimulants, even the Nuvigel is considered propagndaized as "speed"
What i've been trying to show long time, is the correct medications usally are psychostimulants at apporiate doses, they have worked in the past, they activate something that is not "awake", and increase concentration.
It's just a rule in the house, while I live here, my mother pay's for it, she just has power over somethings, and fighting isnt going to help anything, it destroy's relationship's, over something silly like the correct medication, and that's funny because i took spansules here and took them correct, I think it's just there "reputation" as the substance. It's hard going through day's not focused, yet I still critize my own behavior because I know I can do better during the day, it's just alot of "downput" I do, to improve myself. And it doesnt really help much.."guilt" comes and then it makes me feel awful, say I didnt do as many job applications as I wanted. Bacically, I come down to a feeling of unwanted, yet the social aspect's, if my doctor just "knew" that the proper treatment was going and he thought I needed to go to re-hab, that was hard because I went on medciatons that blocked thinking, and life went down hill after that, focus just went down, motivation. I didnt need to go to re-hab, what the thing was was "confict" at home, and re-hab was used as a punishment, not for getting better because my life has gone to the lowest point after it, in mental aspect's.
Thanks for the post
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