Posted by alchemy on September 24, 2009, at 23:26:18
In reply to Re: Depression or existential despair? So lost..., posted by linkadge on September 24, 2009, at 19:48:43
The happy jolly people that I envy don't seem to really think about deep "stuff". I have always been what I guess you call a deep thinker, as well as having mood difficulties. Do they go hand in hand? My existential thinking can sometimes make me go crazy trying to figure everything out. And my fear of dying, having to live after death is the scariest thought to me. I want this to be over. I probably think about what death is more than others I know because I am familiar with wanting to die pretty much all of the time.
For example, my 8 yr old nephew has some type of slight aspergers/bipolar, and very smart. I am sure that he is going to take religion very serious, question, think, etc. He asked me if dinosaurs came before Adam & Eve.
His happy easy go-lucky brother will probably just think of church as a social event.
I found it interesting that on a day I was having a lot of thoughts about the world, pain, meaning of life; and feeling crazy and down, I had forgot to take my daily xanax.
This venting probably doesn't really address your question, but thanks for letting me vent :) I wish I had a simple happy head.
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