Posted by doxogenic boy on August 30, 2009, at 18:56:38
In reply to Re: My medication history 1994 to 2009 » doxogenic boy, posted by SLS on August 30, 2009, at 13:18:56
> Can you describe in more detail what are the symptoms of your illness?
I find it difficult to put it into words, because I am to some extent familiar with using the psychiatric language when I talk to health care professionals, to make it easy to explain.
But I understand the important details will disappear in all those diagnoses.
I worry excessively, and there are several mood swings during the same day.
Most of the day, my life looks hopeless, rest of the day, normally in the evening a few hours or a few moments before I fell asleep, it is better; I am more optimistic and think about what I can do tomorrow or more long time projects. (But not symptom-free, and not hypomanic) If I just could start next morning where I finished the day before, everything had been better; when I wake up, every morning all the plans and thoughts from yesterday seem impossible, useless, stupid, embarrassing if I remember it at all.I have to write down the constructive thoughts from my best moments in my big note book, if not, they are away the next day. Very often, it happens that it is forgotten instantly, so I never reach to write it down. And quite as often, I dont bother to write anything, because of mental blocks that appear in all kind of contexts. For example, I can be reluctant to start my PC, or for cooking in the kitchen; I eat bread and milk and mostly not a dinner Monday to Friday, because it takes too much energy and I have to come through all these mental blocks to be able to starting at all.
The brain is like a search engine that looks for anything dangerous, so that my mind and body are in the alert most of the time or all the time when it is on the worst. All those strenuous thoughts and feelings make me worn out, so there is little or no energy left to do the things I wished I could do, both small matters such as cleaning and tidying up my apartment and bigger things, such as finding meaningful doings to make my life worth living and fighting for.
> How long do you give antidepressants to work before you declare them as a failed trial?About a month but here are big differences.
It will be shorter if it has unbearable side effects or worsen my depression and anxiety and if it makes the situation dangerous.If I can live with the side effects, and/or if it is probable that a worsening of the illness in the beginning is temporary, I can give it several months.
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