Posted by Phillipa on August 13, 2009, at 21:28:37
In reply to Re: Fear » polarbear206, posted by Phillipa on August 13, 2009, at 20:38:56
Fear let's see all of these and others: when in the delivery room recognized I could no longer nurse and it was my life my identity. I wanted things to go faster like you can hasten a birth. Then in ob seeing nurses still working my age and knowing I no longer have the patience to do this, knowing I'd have to go back to school to work and then med surg for a month full time with bad back, then a month full time of psych before I could work parttime. And at age 63 doesn't make sense. I need to accept and I so far cant. Then feeling numb with the baby, then knowing the father was as worried as me cause Daughter has a large unruly dog who she feels will love the baby, and how to protect that baby, with a Daughter that goes from hot to cold, spending money I didn't have when saw the baby didn't nearly have in the apartment what she needs so bought it, knowing she didn't sign the birth certificate with the father's name and he's wonderful. I fear that a baby's wellbeing is at stake. And when the bomb falls as usual it will be my fault. Those are just a few of the fears. Now I have to work at gotta got money some how. Thanks for listening. I'm venting the same way others do here. Oh did I forget the endo can't regulate my thyroid and I'm taking hormones that didnt work another letdown. And my pdoc has been out of work for six months from a car accident. Would you have some fears? And then the medicaire one. Thanks. Phillipa
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