Posted by g_g_g_unit on June 5, 2009, at 5:05:48
In reply to Re: stimulant recommendation » g_g_g_unit, posted by emme on June 5, 2009, at 4:42:27
well, at the moment i'm kind of trapped in a bad situation: 8 months ago i gave up my life's passion as a freelance writer due to mental burnout from SSRI's. in the meantime, i've been working extra hours at my part-time job at a library in order to pay for physiotherapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, meds, etc. the more i work at a computer + lift books, the worse my pain (overuse syndrome = nerve pain in arms + legs) gets, meaning my depression worsens, meaning i spend more on therapists, meaning i have to work extra hours, etc.
my rationale is that a stimulant might provide me with the motivation (i have pretty much zero reward sensitivity at the moment, not to mention poor word recall, inability to fully coordinate my thoughts etc.) to return to working as a writer, which will then create a positive feedback cycle, as my pain lessons due to having to work less at the library, and having more time for physical rehabilitation etc. etc. my current pdoc was adventurous enough to let me try memantine; however he doesn't know very much about me (i've only seen him twice) and is not very sensitive to my complaints about cognitive functioning. my plan is to write out exactly the symptoms i'm experiencing and how they're affecting my life, with the additional proviso that i have an actual life plan that i am trying to follow through on (i.e. i did experience success as a writer prior to brainfog onset from general burnout, i guess, plus a whole slew of ssri trials performed last year). failing his compliance, i have a friend who knows of a pdoc who treats ADD and is more sympathetic to cognitive complains (my friend also agrees, incidentally, that dexamphetamine is the best stim).
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