Posted by X_ander on March 15, 2009, at 3:35:20
In reply to Re: Treatment for emotional numbness??? » X_ander, posted by JadeKelly on March 14, 2009, at 23:06:49
Hi Jade, thanks for your post, appreciate it.
Ok, well I'm officially diagnosed as MDD.
My symptoms are: emotional/reactive numbness, detachment, insomnia (off and on), and it's more that I get depressed ABOUT the detachment and lack of emotion, rather than feeling sad about something in particular. And I think that's it, no other symptoms.
I've had a pdoc at one time say I had prodromal psychosis. State before schizophrenia essentially. And I rejected it. I've never had delusions, heard voices, hallucinated. Never used anything not prescribed. I uh, yeah i'm just at a loss. In reading up, prodromal psychosis symptoms are pretty much what I have. But I have no family history of it. I'm 24 btw, male... if that's relevant.
But I haven't responded to anything. I was put on anti-psychotics for 2 weeks...didn't change anything (abilify and zeldox)..maybe didn't stay on them long enough?? I dunno, they aren't really supposed to help the negative symptoms of schizophrenia anyway, which are pretty much just the prodromal symptoms.
So I guess I'm wondering if i'm gonna become psychotic. Wondering if it's just a horrible type of depression. Wondering which way to take it. I really just want to feel again. That is it. I don't care about being down really, I just want to feel and react to the world around me.
I've never been diagnosed PTSD, never had any incredibly traumatic event occur. I just looked it up because of the whole numbness side of things. Looking everywhere for clues, answers.
I'm taking ritalin at the moment, for anhedonia. Finally convinced my doc to let me try it. It seems like it works some of the time. Like for 20mins couple times a week maybe where I feel more excitement for things, it's weird, definitely the ritalin, but then it goes away. And increasing the dose only seems to make me zone out...become sort of like a robot.
Tried, cymbalta, bupropion, lexapro, luvox, moclobemide, abilify, ritalin, mirtazapine.
Yes at a loss...I'm so so so tired...of not feeling. There seems very little around about treating this specific symptom. I've pretty much scoured the forums here for answers. So yeah..um help..?
Glad to here you're in complete remission, that is unbelievably wonderful. Congratulations.
Xander.
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