Posted by Fivefires on July 13, 2008, at 21:39:24
In reply to Re: California Rocket Fuel + » Fivefires, posted by SLS on July 12, 2008, at 10:35:05
> For me personally, I found that Effexor 300mg was more effective than 225mg.>
Glad you're here, and this gives me some 'HOPE', cuz suffering quite a lot. Developed a dependence upon one or more things, I believe.
>I think it is worth establishing that dosage before augmenting with anything.>
I guess then my pdoc IS doing this right
>I like adding either nortriptyline or Wellbutrin to Effexor. You are not alone. Cyberspace is real. It is like having an army of pen-pals at your side.>
I was beginning to think you were 'all' tired of me, always asking and maybe never 'giving'(?) enough in return. I see this trait in myself and don't like it; I wasn't always like this, pp who needed help/comfort used to come to me.(?)
>While this is an inadequate substitute for the human touch, it is still a form of socializing.>
Yes, it's pretty dang close.
I posted a followup to another's post on neurotransmitters. I've been feeling like I'm jonesing(sp?), but not sure for what, .. benzo, pain med, cigarette, LOVE?, all? Can't find relief.
>I was a complete hermit for ten years before joining the world of Psycho-Babble.>
Oh my goodness; how'd you get out alive?
>It helped me reconnect with people.>
I am thankful for it. It does help. And, like any communication, sometimes good, sometimes confusing, sometimes bad.
> Please keep us updated on what's going on with you. You have friends. I know of at least one.>I'll go up to 300mg E-XR next Weds.
Today, cold, hot, aching for something inside, alone, agoraphobic, heavy hard breathing, no appetite, dropping pounds. Spend day in bed w/ only Provigil to get me up. Docs won't approve inpatient med stabilization. Only admit if suic*dal or homici*l or ps*chotic. At my age though, I wonder, worry, I could suffer a more physical insult to my body, in such shape. Told nothing will help me by T. Think error to say this to me. Need empathetic T. Too sick to do the footwork, paperwork, phone calls to make the change right now tho'.
Do major depressive episodes last 8-9mos?
Like said, can't do IRL and/or Normal Activities Of Daily Living or NADLs done; so weak, withered.
I have done all but filed a complaint re: my care. I make it known to my healthcare givers how I am doing consistently via phone.
I've tried very hard to not take more benzo or oxycodone than prescribed, but am finding this more and more difficult. Have developed a dependence but not certain to which!(?) I will hyperventilate if I fear running out of cigarettes. Literally am disheveled and malnourished, very hot, then chilling cold, feel needy, fear inpatient facilities where might be treated like criminal so only one which I know of is palatable to me and usually there are no vacancies.
I've etched nortriptyline and wellbutrin in my mind. When time, will you tell me, pharmacologically, how they interact and aid Effexor-XR, and now they might rid me of some of these side effects and might tackle this agoraphobia, this lack of a feeling of well-being? I once had sufficient self-confidence and ability to orchestrate, appropriately, self-advocacy. I feel uncomfortably vulnerable.
> :-)
> Please don't hesitate to ask questions and give feedback to others.
>
> Regarding your reaction>Yeah, guess that was pretty obvious.
>to my asking to keep my boundaries in place, I can understand it and can see myself reacting the same way. I'm sure your reaction was amplified by being alone and perhaps not having practice in knowing when to take something personally and when not to. It was nothing personal.>
I tried to see it and feel it socially properly. I know this is a thing we need to do for ourselves to take care of ourselves sometimes, but, being so alone and having felt I'd known you quite a long time, couldn't get it right there for a while and hesitated and didn't know how to respond. I am sorry.
> I hope to see you feel better soon.>
I know, and am very glad to have heard from you this day. This is helpful. It's been pretty dang bad/horrible.
> - Scott>
Tks Scott
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