Posted by BGB on July 5, 2008, at 4:09:01
In reply to Thank you all seriously, posted by chiron on June 26, 2008, at 20:41:09
I think your doctor is crazier than any of us are. There's almost no way to maintain any sort of intimate relationship when you are that severely depressed; especially if you are not already seriously committed to someone. Someone has to love you a whole lot and have a very serious commitment to you to stay with you during deep depressions, so how the hell are you supposed to form and maintain a new relationship?
Bipolar disorder killed my 3-year relationship; I always thought that we had the very best and healthiest relationship of anyone that I knew, and then an incredibly bad depressive episode hit me. So he left me, which was really really great for my already suicidal mood. The only reason I didn't kill myself is that I was afraid that he would feel guilty, and while I was bitter that he left me, I still cared for him and didn't want to destroy his life by ending my own. I wonder just about every day, hmmm, has it been long enough since we broke up? If I put a round of 12-gauge .00 buckshot through my head, would he still feel somewhat responsible? I guess that's a good thing; it's probably all that's keeping me around. The jacka**. I really do resent him now because he's just prolonging my misery.
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