Posted by crazybeautiful on June 5, 2008, at 15:12:42
In reply to Re: Borderline so no AD will help so pdoc/T give up!?, posted by Phillipa on June 3, 2008, at 0:11:32
I actually thought I was borderline for quite some time & to tell you the truth, I still don't know what my REAL diagnosis is. I don't cut or abuse myself either. However, I am very irritable & angry, even to the point of abusing others. The littlest thing can set me off. It could start with a simple argument over my boyfriend leaving his dirty dishes in our bedroom & then manifest into something huge, where I start bringing up other crap that he does that bothers me. Eventually, I've done so much screaming & slamming doors that I'm exhausted, can't breathe, & forgot what I was even angry about. Then I just start crying because I don't want things to be this way. I don't think I really have typical manic depressive symptoms, but I don't know. If I do, they are mild & I think they're probably rapid cycling because I can go from happy to screaming mad & then crying & sad all in one day, several times a week. The only real thing that seems to make me sad/depressed is my anger & social phobia. And my sad times usually happen immediately after an argument & don't last very long. My happy times don't seem to be that abnormal. I still sleep the same amount. Although, I do have more motivation & energy than normal, but it doesn't really seem like it's overkill. I'm not spending hours upon hours cleaning my house or anything like that. I don't have much energy or motivation to begin with. I never have. So the amount I have during my happy times just seems normal. Does any of this sound familiar?
I do believe there's hope for you in taking anti-depressants. There are many helpful meds out there, you just have to find the right one(s). Currently, I take Lexapro 20mg & Wellbutrin SR 75mg. The Lexapro has been wonderful, but I'm still not sure we've found my magical cocktail just yet.
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