Posted by kaylen on June 3, 2008, at 13:09:40
In reply to Intrusive music in my head, posted by boltsdraggin on May 24, 2008, at 20:42:23
My first manic episode I heard eric claptons Layla , at night i would wake up to whole new revisions of songs he did {but i was the author}...all very clear and sounding beutiful. . I was very manic and thought the music was coming from anything electrical ...light sockets ...toasters..*LOL* you name it ....I was so convinced that my family was also checking the electrical things to see if they could hear it also, when they couldnt ..it was dropped {meaning they thought nothing odd that i was hearing my music and they were not}. It was basicly non stop untill i finally because of halucinating so much so long and so real {almost everything I saw that was a halucination of sight ,I knew it was a halucination , so i thought that was OK. when I went to pick up my puppy and he dissaperd i realized , I should see a doctor ..i have a good sense of humor ...i laughed at myself ...called my husband , told him i needed to see the doctor asap...he took me ...and eric was in my head the whole time untill my reg doc sent me to a dif doc and as he was walking towards me in a crowd ..i told my husband ..."theres my doctor the music just stopped" ...hub looked at me and said "we have never seen this guy ..and that is not a doctor your guess is wrong" ...i ignored him and walked up to meet my new doc ..i still love erics music and i replay on cd's and in my mind . but it is just as any regular person hears a song in there head now ...that was many yrs ago...ive been upgraded over time to hypo-manic ..i control it with phentermine and xanax. BTW i was totaly clean and free of all drugs and alcohol at the time of this episode. Many other and profound things happened ..manic can be a beutiful mind expanding experince untill one is over tired ,total lack of sleep and food , but what isnt spoiled by that?it is not necesarily a bad thing ..not at all. I have had one head injury , but it was after this episode ...maybe its why im not as manic as i was . I dont know if this is at all helpfull..but i wanted to share it with you BOLTS,and it defo wasnt all good either , do mental disorders run in your family?...have you exposed yourself to ear deafening concerts? or head phones?, do you take drugs and /or drink? what is your general health? is this the only thing that MAY be atributed to your injuries?Do you get enough sleep? think about this next one ..please...Do you have plenty of stimuli for your creative part of your brain??..just a few questions off the top of my head ...i hope everything goes well for you , now and always ..i wish for you and everyone the best that this life has to offer ...thank you one and all.
peace
kaylen
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