Posted by Sophronia on April 10, 2008, at 21:20:02
Hi folks:
Its been awhile since I've here but in the last 6 months I've taken a huge depressive nose-dive. Meds I'm currently on:
Lamictal, 100mg
Zoloft, 50mg
Trileptal, 1200mg
Trazodone, 50mg
Clonapin, 1mg
Zyprexa is being replaced with Abilify (currently on 2.5mg of Z. and 2mg of A)I just keep getting more and more depressed and am having anxiety attacks. I'm wondering if I need to go into a hospital; don't want to but I'm a bit scared by how lost I feel. Pdoc is, of course, trying everything to keep me out of hospital, including seeing me a couple times of week and now she wants me to see a therapist a couple times of week. I just started to see a "dialectal behavior therapist" at pdoc's suggestion; the shrink I saw for years--I don't know what happened but things turned bad in the fall and trying to fix things just made them worse. I've called him to see him--though he doesn't have a regular time for me and definitely can't see me twice a week. the new "dbt" person isn't sure she can help me....
I don't know...does anyone here have any encouragement or insight to give me? I've never been in a hospital before. My pdoc has told me where to go if I end up wanting to check myself in--it is a place that is very pro-active and she feels confident it is the best place to go in the city where I live. Part of me wants to let go and check myself in; part of me is scared I'll lose a part of myself if I do that.
I know you all can't make my decision for me. Or even really give me advice. But if you are willing to talk about your experiences, I'm looking to listen to them.
Sophie
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