Posted by ian36 on April 10, 2008, at 19:57:05
I am so tired of this. Moved to a new state started a new job and I've been there two months but still uncomfortable others and worried about what they think of me to the point that I can't relax with them and chat comfortably. I obsess over what people think of me, feel as if everyone is watching me and etc. If not anxious like that I'm depressed and just feel so tired and blah. I've been on every med. Benzos make me lazy and I'm in recovery and abuse them. No ones diagnosed me as bipolar, docs said anxiety depression. Sick of it. I don't think pills make it much better, perhaps they make it worse, like the benzos where I become totally apathetic. The only medical answer might be Lamicatl because I think it evened me out but I was super foggy brained, either from the Lamical zoloft or the Lipitor which gave me amnesia. Maybe this is as good as it gets, maybe it's just attitude and the steps in AA are the answer. I am starting to think meds only make things minimally more tolerable and the changes needed to make a dysfunctional personality happy are huge and rare. Maybe this is as good as it gets...
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