Posted by polarbear206 on February 28, 2008, at 10:23:49
In reply to Im so upset right now, posted by your#1fan on February 27, 2008, at 23:55:49
> I just............i cant deal with reality right now, i want to switch personalites if had another one.
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> I have to know that some people here care about me, i have been going the entire day distaught, dissociated because i cant deal what the doctor told me.
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> When i went to the doctor's office there was poster of VYVANSE all over the place, and then i mentioned it to him. Well i already explined, he legally cannot treat me for ADHD. Which is very sad. My mother had something to do with this, because she did tell him the that she does not approve of a stimulant, but now he cannot even Legally prescribe it to me. This is so, im just want to to kill myself because the amount of calls i have MADE TO HIM of urgency, of my condition, which was ignored, and then i began writing letters of the severity of this issue. I came in, with my hopes up, "im sorry fan, im not legally responsible for your ADHD anymore"
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> My mother had alot to do with this. She manipulated, even i admit, i did abuse Adderall, over and over again. But she didnt tell me what. Im just staring at the screen rightn now because i know i cant be medically treated for ADHD. He told me "you can do without medication". Listen, i can, but the past to year I have DETERIATED in many forms of routines which he ignored.
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> I have been through many emotional-anger outbursts, i came in to church crying my freaking eyes out try to find my mother. I made a horrible scene of myself. I do believe i am manic-depressive at this point, because the amount of unstableness i have thought out the day, is not normal. I get very upset, like its normal, "get angry" has what i have been taught.
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> I need someone to help me, please, i may not respond because i have so much to do, and i have nothing to help me. But maybe someone could encourage me at this point?
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> fan
If you are bipolar,(which many of us suspect you are) you MUST focus on getting your mood stabilized and forget about stimulants right now. It may be very possible that they are exacerbating your bipolar. Maybe down the road after you are stabilized, it MAY be possible. You are young, and need to come to terms and accept your illness. Be compliant with your medication regime. As I recall, you like your "highs". Keep in mind that your condition can get worse over time if not properly treated. You have been given some good advice here from others who have been around and are very educated. Take it and collaberate with your p-doc and focus your energy on a new approach and treatment plan.PB
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