Posted by AMY II on February 27, 2008, at 21:22:38
In reply to Re: When does anxiety become paranoia?, posted by yxibow on February 14, 2008, at 17:16:24
I haven't been here in a while and I have been SUFFERING for 9 years now. I have mystified every medical doctor and neurologist I have seen. Even an eye doctor.
Every time I went to see a psycologist, they wanted me to talk through what has been happenig to me (see my other posts since 1999 and you will see I need a little more than talk therapy!)
I am going to my 5th appointment with a Pdoc, first time keeping these appts. He already is going into "I need to revisit childhood issues".
To recap, I have tried pretty much every SSRI or SNRI there is. Effexor worked the best for me but still had "weird feelings" in my head. Always had to have zanax handy. Have had weird neurological symptoms for the last nine years. I am being told that this "X" trip I did 9 years ago probably just brought out an underlying condition I have always had and made it worse. I get that. Fine.
He wants to put me on Risperdal, Klonopin, and Clomipramine. I looked up the side effects of Risperdal and NO THANKS. Are you seriously telling me that is my alternative? End up getting TD for the rest of my life? He wants to give me .25 milligrams of it. It seems he just jumped to "an element of psycosis" right away. It kind of pisses me off.
Because now, that is all I think about. Since last week when he said the word "psycosis". I have always said there is something more than anxiety going on and have always wanted a different diagnosis than just anxiety.
Funny and sad at the same time, I went through my old postings and somebody gave me a link to a book. Tormenting thoughts and Rituals. "Tormenting thoughts"??? Somebody else had this??? I bought the book immediately and realized I have OCD too!!!! I could have written some of the things in this book myself. All these years and NOBODY said OCD! Not one person. "Oh, you just have anxiety, it's acute..here is some zoloft, here is some effexor, here is some paxil, here is some cymbalta, here is some buspar, etc."
Some of it is my fault because I couldn't manage to find a psyciatrist and stick with him. Yes that is right, all these years I just haven't done it. I have been so anti pdoc because of the whole "let's look into your childhood" thing.
Somebody please help me. I feel so hopeless right now. I am not doing good. I see the Pdoc tomorrow.
PLEASE READ MY previous threads and somebody HELP!!!!
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