Posted by Sigismund on November 26, 2007, at 1:11:16
In reply to Re: What else with Nardil ? Sugesstions » Racer, posted by tepi on November 25, 2007, at 19:59:57
>When I reach the house I saw a lot of cars and that made me fell umconfortable
****Yes
>( I would have no enter there if were not for xanax and nardil)****I quite understand
>Anyway I enter , and said good nigth , but nobody answered my greeting****I once went to a bar to order a drink. The bartender did not hear my order. I was too frightened to say it again, too frightened to leave and too frightened to convincingly pretend that everything was OK. I sat there very still for 30 minutes before I could leave.
>(this kinds of things always made me going down , maybe they did not listen to me, anyway my mind did not thougth that, I ad toughts like , well nobody care Im here and more)****Maybe they felt uncomfortable and lacked the social skills to do anything about it?
>Then I just sit alone and started to hear what other people talk, I never talk , maybe I could answer question with 2 or 3 words but that is all. So all the time Im judginf how fool I am,****you are not a fool, clearly, but you felt that they were not talking to you because you were not worth talking to.
>wishing I could enter someplace and everboyd say hello , and when I talk everybody listen,****Yes
>In this moment the little words I say are not taken in count. I am sure that they can feel how insecure I am.****I firmly believe that they CAN see how you feel. After all I (believe I) know how they feel.
>Same happen on my job when I suggest something
I am still there because they see I can do it and well. It is kind of paranoic thougths , insecurity about myself , always worried about what other people think of me.
Damn I feel better when I drink, why there is no med that could act like alcohol??****Tep, I was thinking today...if you thought that things would never get any better, you might just kill yourself, but maybe you would think 'My God, I have done this, and not too many people could'?
I always have 2 oz of spirits (no more) in the evening and I drink it REALLY quickly.
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