Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on August 20, 2007, at 6:00:32
In reply to HOW DO YOU KNOW WHICH WORKS ANYWAY?, posted by GOGO on August 19, 2007, at 12:33:21
I think some meds can work with mild results, while others offer amazing and full results.
For example, I have tried like 7 antidepressants, of which some have barely worked, others have been mild, and ONE gave me dramatic results:
Zoloft: It targeted my OCD, but didn't touch my social anxiety. I felt great that I could do things without feeling obsessively guilty about them, and that I could study without being always guilty about how "little" I had accomplished. But I was still disabled socially. I remember even asking my doc if I could combine Zoloft and another SSRI to target both equally debilitating problems, and of course, the answer was NO.
Nardil: So far it's given me very mild results in depression and social anxiety. I still feel anxious in certain situations, but not as horrifically as I would feel if I were taking absolutely nothing.
Celexa: This was the absolute magic pill for a whole year. I had happiness and desire to socialize radiating off me 24/7. I'd wake up with a smile on my face despite any problems I was going through. I suddenly had a charisma and an amazing empathy for others that had been repressed for years. Every repression I had in my personality broke loose and suddenly I could (and desired to) express my feelings freely and confidently. I made people laugh out loud and I felt a need to socialize at all times; it was such an enjoyment to talk to and be around people. I would talk and talk and talk, while before I'd only said the basic stuff and regretted it later or ruminated over my behavior all the time.
This has been my experience so far with antidepressants.
I'm still waiting for the day I will have a reaction like the one I had with Celexa, but after trying so many meds, I'm starting to suspect that this is a once-in-a-lifetime brain reaction that once building tolerance, won't repeat.
And it's such a waste of life to know that forever I will use only a 5% of my emotional self and suffer tremendously in the process of living the rest of my life. A shame. A real shame. But at least I knew, at least for one year, what it felt like to be normal. It is painful though, to know that I'll probably never be again.
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