Posted by bournemouth on August 7, 2007, at 15:15:10
Hi, Basically I am having some Depersonalisation, Anxiety, etc. problems that I have had for 6-7 years now. I have tried SSRIs, MAOIs with no success and am wondering if part of my symptoms could be due to ADHD - possible inattentive type?
After trying to do some work yesterday I realised how much concentration and organisation was such a major problem to me - I couldn't actually concentrate enough to complete anything, I tried moving on to something else but again I struggled to maintain motivation and concentration. I tried to plan it and work in a different manner but the harder I tried the more impossible it felt. I try and try but I just end up frustrated and don't have much energy or motivation to start with.
I have had to repeat a year at uni twice because I just can't manage to concentrate on the work. I never get there on time - I don't know why I'm late I just always manage to handle time management so badly. I don't really take anything in at lectures I'm just so dreamy and tired and even if I try and concentrate it just doesn't sink in. The same with reading.. I can force myself to read for a bit and I understand the information but none of it actually goes in. I try everything to learn things but nothing sticks :(
could my feeling of "derealisation" really just be a feature of ADD?
I have a feeling of constant tiredness and dreamy, drowsy state like I'm in a bubble kind of one step removed from the real world. I also feel very fatigued and tired constantly - doing housework, going to the gym seem impossible most of the time. A psychiatrist diagnosed this as CFS although I have no pain or other related symptoms that I believe CFS commonly presents.
This really scares me and I don't know if I can handle existing like this - the fear of spending my life feeling like this scares me!
As for childhood symptoms... well my mum hasn't been too helpful about this and I feel in a daze like just here and now - my memory doesn't really exist - so remembering childhood for myself isn't helpful. However I was always really quiet, shy, wouldn't even answer the register at school when I first started. Was apparently happier playing alone with toys rather than in a group with other kids.
Sorry about my rambling post but hopefully it makes sense any input or help ruling this out would help!
Thanks :)
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