Posted by deniseuk190466 on July 11, 2007, at 15:04:44
In reply to Re: Did I die and go to hell?, posted by FredPotter on July 10, 2007, at 16:44:04
I might try reading those books. When I had a two year spell of feeling better, I went on this Alpha Course (religious course) because I thought maybe if I found God then I wouldn't get really bad again but the course didn't really answer any of my question although I am always really curious about people who say that they have felt God or have been overcome by the Power of the Holy Spirit. I keep wanting The Holy Spirit to overcome me so that I wouldn't have to rely on Zyprexa.
People who are religious say that Jesus loves you and wants what's best for you but I can only think that people who say that are really not feeling that bad otherwise they couldn't think that. I guess when you are feeling desperate you long for some more powerful force to save you because no-one on this earth seems to be able to.
I will try and read those books though, thanks for recommending them and thanks for taking the time to respond.
By the way I keep toying with the idea of ECT,, although I know it's nothing to be toyed with but I wonder what I have to lose. But then I think well at least with the help of Zyprexa I am able to work and then if I had ECT I wouldn't even be able to do that then I probably would go mad but I guess I could do charity work. I really don't know. My psychiatrist is against my having ECT and won't even discuss it with me as an option as she says I don't suffer with straight forward depression. I don't know what I suffer from, this time it has felt worse than dysthymia. I have had dysthymia like depression between 17 and 24. This time it feels worse or it could just be that I've had about enough of it.
What really scares me is the fact that some people don't get any relief (not even from Zyprexa) that is just too awful to consider.
I'm glad Nardil is helping you, maybe I should have had the patience to stick it out longer than a month I just really felt that it wasn't helping.
Have you had ECT Fred?