Posted by Ines on May 5, 2007, at 6:24:50
In reply to Listening to the 'lies' about taking meds, posted by UgottaHaveHope on May 5, 2007, at 0:25:20
> A couple of random thoughts:
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> 1. When you start talking about meds, you find out at least half the ppl you know are dealing with the same issues and also taking meds.That is so true. I've only recently started feeling more comfortable with talking about depression with some people. I found out that both guys I share an office with have struggled with depression in the past!
Funnily enough, I don't find this reassuring at all. I find it scary. The idea that we keep reproducing and putting new people in the world who would actually prefer not to be here if given the choice is scary. I really prefer to think that all the people out there are at least content and I'm just the odd one out. Or maybe it's just that different people experience depression in different ways. For me, even when I am going through a good patch and am reasonably happy and having fun, I would always choose not to have been born if I had the choice. For me the bad times are so bad, and they always come back time and time again, that I would always choose not to be here, even if I don't actively want to kill myself. Does anyone relate to this? I was recently discussing this with a depressive friend who didn't get it all- she said that when she is depressed she wants to die, and when she's not she wants to live and really values her life. Maybe it's got to do with the fact that my depression is chronic rather than purely episodic...
Ines
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