Posted by polarbear206 on April 16, 2007, at 10:24:21
In reply to Am I just a miserable person?, posted by TrishP on April 16, 2007, at 6:59:37
> I just don't understand why I am not happy. I should be very happy and content with my life. I have a good job, a nice house, a nice car, a wonderful husband and the luxury to spend money here and there without too much worry. But as far back as I can remember (maybe 4 or 5 years old) I have been miserable.
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> I am 39 years old, I never had any children and now I feel like I am going to live for the next 30 - 40 years and die. What am I going to do with the rest of my life? I don't really have a passion. I look around at my friends and they are knee deep in frustration with their children. They look at me and think how lucky I am that I could read a book or take a bath in peace.
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> I've thought about adopting a child, but I don't know if that would make me happy or just help me relate to everyone else's life.
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> Am I just a miserable person? Am I just depressed? Would I be better if I would stick to some meds?
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> I would never take my life, but sometimes I don't understand why I am here and others are not. I feel like I am just taking up space and I wish I could give my next 20 years to someone else who would really enjoy them.
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Have you seen a p-doc and explained what you have said here in your post? Having felt this way since you were very young is not normal. You are cheating yourself from a happy productive full life. You need to put yourself first and get to the root of your problems. Adopting a child will not make you happy if you are not happy with yourself. It will only compound the problems right now. Don't get me wrong, adoption is a wonderful gift to give a child, but your not at a good place right now. If you could elaborate and give some more details about your symptoms, it would be helpful. From what you have said, you could have an underlying depression known as dysthymia. People who have this, can function in daily life, it is like a low grade depression and is not debilitating as MDD. Have you seen your pcp to rule out other medical conditions?Polarbear
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