Posted by River1924 on March 3, 2007, at 1:31:54
In reply to Re: Atypical depression » Phillipa, posted by Maxime on March 2, 2007, at 23:35:57
Please please go to the ER. If you have failsafe guns or meds around, go to the ER. I really can't promise you things will get better but....
My 29 year old niece, Jessica, died of a self-inflicted gunshot in December. Because she was atypical (probably), she went to a Christmas party 12 hours before her suicide and laughed and seemed fine. She had however already written her good-bye letter.
I understand her. I am probably the only one in the family who did/does. But I wonder how she would be feeling now two months later.
To save save herself, she would have needed time to de-stress. She needed to be selfish. She needed to leave the roles of mother and wife and daughter and untangle herself from all that...
Sometimes after years of suffering, others in our life forget we are hurting. Suicide is an answer, I agree. But be selfish in other ways first. It is humiliating and hopeless and people don't get it but put yourself in a hospital, in a monastery, on the mayor's doorstep. Camp outside the neurology department and go on a hunger strike.
Just please.... annoy others. I don't like the phase "a cry for help." It seems to trivalize the pain into an attention seeking behavior. But try other ways to get others to take your emotional/spiritual life seriously.
Peace, River.
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