Posted by 4mygrls on February 25, 2007, at 17:57:50
I am currently tapering off of klonopin.It works great but there's too thin of a line where it works then it makes me depressed. We replaced it with buspar. I have terrible anxiety and depression. I use to think what i had was pmdd but no ssri's helped. I get to where everything overwhelms me and i don't deal with stressful things very well. This only happens for about a week every month. I had hormonal issues and had to have a hysterectomy. So I thought it might be hormones. But I haven't been able to get my hormones tested. My gyn said it was unnecessary. I need to go to another dr. to get that done.
The best way to describe what happens is i would be on edge, very agitated and angry. I can feel it in my body. I get very tense and have an overwhelming urge to lash out. It's being stressed out x 100. My husband makes things worse cuz he just likes to sweep things under the carpet as if they didn't happen. It makes me feel like a child when he does that. Like what i'm feeling or doing is just a temper tantrum. During the rest of the month, i can handle things pretty well. A good example would be what has happened in our household recently.The short of it is, one daughter,age 16 became suicidal and goes into a psych hospital.She is very depressed and has many identity issues.She did took a bunch of cold meds but threw it up.The hospital screwed up alot of her intake screening and i was afraid of what was going to happen to her if they could get away with what they did during intake. Just a couple days later, we get a call in the middle of the night and my oldest is in the er. It turns out she is bilemic.Has been for over two years.How did I not know this? During all this time, I had my issues with mental health stability but i was winning the battle. I cried a bit but held it together.My dh even commented on how well i was doing during all this. But then it all came crashing down.I had a conference call with daughters social worker and it did not go good at all. She lied to me about stuf she said my dh said. She told my daughter stuff that she shouldn't have. That event sent me over the edge.I had a huge fight with dh and i lost it. This was the worse i have ever been. I was told my kids hated me.It was so ugly. I felt abandoned,rejected,like a horrible mother and person. I felt like I messed up my kids so bad and it wasn't getting better. That night i took alot of benadryl and other meds,including klonopin. I passed out on the floor and my oldest daughter found me the next morning unresponsive. I don't feel suicidal now but I still feel like nothing i do is working to change things. I just can't get it right. I'm tired of so many meds. This incident really scared me. I just pray that someone can help me. I just don't know what else to try.
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