Posted by blueberry1 on January 30, 2007, at 16:54:45
I swear anything norepinephrine is bad for me. Same pattern always happens. Initial rapid mood boost. Fades away. Turns into really unbearably severe depression at about day 4, MUCH worse than where I started. And I thought I started out pretty bad. With anything noradrenergic I end up saying stuff like, "more depressed than I've been in a very long time".
Why is that? I'm going to call my doctor. But I know what she'll say...I'm not yet on a therapeutic dose and you need to be on one for at least a month. But there is no way in hell I can survive this.
This time the pattern repeated with cymbalta. I am only at a ridiculous 8mg. Today was the absolute worst day in longer than I can remember. I was NOT this bad before I started.
Before my doctor chose cymbalta I told her I do respond to ssris. At least they get rid of the depression mostly. But I am left very blah with no interest or motivation in life. I told her let's get me to that point of safety and then work on the blah symptoms after that. She said cymbalta would do it all. She gave me samples. I wonder what kind of under-the-table kickback they get for giving out samples?
Looking back, nothing I ever tried worked without 5mg zyprexa along with it. Damn. I hate to think about that. I guess I shouldn't argue with results though.
Anyway, is it normal to go from very bad to reallly really really bad? Is it normal to go through that stage before you start feeling better? Is that the stage where people commit suicide shortly after starting an antidepressant or changing a dose? I don't recall ever going through that with paxil or prozac or zoloft or lexapro. Only dl-phenylalanine, adderall, tyrosine, milnacipran, cymbalta, and I'm sure I forgot a few.
What do you think? What should I do?
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