Posted by liliths on January 15, 2007, at 7:06:22
In reply to Re: Had pdoc appt and got go ahead on stims/Liliths, posted by stargazer on January 14, 2007, at 20:08:41
hi stargazer
thank you... like you, my life has been on hold... this latest disaster threw me into a pretty non-functional depression. I'm hoping that I can start moving foward, backwards, sideways... any way! LOL once it's over
that said, I don't know what I'm going to do about my meds. Part of this 'case' is that they're screwing with my meds - taking away one of the only ones that actually helps. In doing that, well, I haven't been feeling a great response from the wellbutrin/buspar anyway so I need to look into something else... but also have to find another pdoc to work with, as my other one went a bit 'nuts' over these proceedings, which challenged his rights to prescribe. Instead of being helpful towards the case, he became so defensive he attacked me and wrote a totally reprehensible letter, making me out to be some sort of suicidal maniac without 'his' regimen. Fortunately I have enough documentation to disprove this 'timeline' of his. If need be, I can invalidate his statements... but that does my case no good at all... if anything, it makes it worse. I've left out his letter but if someone contacts him while researching my case and he makes his claims, it's likely I'll simply be denied my license and the last 2 years of my life will have been for nothing
all this drama... as if trying to just' function' hasn't been overwhelming enough!
so in finding a new pdoc, I have to find someone willing to 'hear' me as well as willing to look at things with fresh, unconventional eyes. I'm used to having a lot of say about my meds - I've always done a lot of research and by now, have tried enough to know what I will or won't tolerate
the only other drug I'm actually considering besides the EMSAM is tianpetine.. LOL I'm sure they're polarities apart but a lot of what I've read about tianeptine makes it sound like a possible candidate for my depression/anxiety/even the ADD... though I'd have to order it from overseas as it's not recognized in the US.
obviously I'm up in the air about all of this. I have had success with MAOI's in the past but with eventual terrible rebound side effects and of course, it was also 20 years ago. Who knows what my brain chemistry is like now as compared to then?
I wish you blessings and continued good fortune in your turnaround... sending you lots of white light :)
namaste,
lilith> Good luck with your hearing...I'll be thinking of you and wishing you luck.
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> I have put my life on hold essentially while I sort this current attempt to get control over my depression. If the stimulant thing works it will be the first time in more than 10 years that I have found a way to live with this diesase which has been ruling my life. I have been unable to work recently and this has really made me feel useless and insignificant.
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> I will continue to post my experiences with Emsam/stims. Hope they will continue to be positives ones.
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> SG
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