Posted by halcyondaze on January 12, 2007, at 18:44:27
In reply to Re:, posted by laima on January 12, 2007, at 17:42:47
Thank you to everyone who responded.
My aunt gave me some of her Xanax, and I have been able to take less than 1 mg each day (which, considering my "history," is kind of amazing). I take 0.5 mg when I leave for work and then 0.5 when I am coming home. It is amazing how much it helps. I am not afraid to go outside when I take it and I am experiencing ZERO euphoria, just relief from anxiety.
I am afraid that I am going to abuse it, which is why I wish my doctor could be on board and give me something milder like Klonopin, even just enough pills for the week (I see her every week; she's my therapist as well as my psychopharmacologist). That's why I can't just "ditch her" - we have a three year therapy relationship and she's helped me in SO many ways.
I think the biggest issue is that, two weeks ago, I relapsed on drugs. I took 45 mg Xanax and the next day ended up injecting heroin, overdosing and nearly dying, and ending up in the ER. So I understand her reservations. And she's requiring me to do an outpatient substance abuse program so I can't take unprescribed Xanax for much longer. I don't really know what to do.
I was considering switching from Parnate to a SSRI - Zoloft worked for me very well (for depression) and maybe it would help the panic attacks too.
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