Posted by blueberry1 on December 26, 2006, at 15:49:20
In reply to Re: Hey Blueberry1 AGAIN, posted by UgottaHaveHope on December 25, 2006, at 17:16:17
> What is your diagnosis? Are you bipolar? Man, my heart goes out to you.
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> What was the ECT like? Would you recommend?My diagnosis? Well, that depends on which doctor you ask. It has been everything from depression to bipolarII to depression with anxiety. Actually when I read about all the psychiatric things, I would say I have a bit of all of them combined. Depression, anxiety, hourly or daily fluctutations, unexplained fear, uncomfortable in a crowd, uncomfortable in closed in spaces, ADHD, and everything. Take a bit of them all and stir them up and there you go.
What was ECT like? Bad. Very very bad. I would not even recommend it to an enemy. It was 3 weeks of worsened depression, increased fear and anxiety, then all of a sudden 2 days of perfect normalcy, followed by a week of psychotic agitated mania, followed by 6 police officers in my house and a ride in the ambulance to the emergency room for suicidal ideation. Not cool.
I forgot to mention that I lost 3 months of memory. 3 months are gone. Whatever happened in those 3 months, whatever I did in that time, doesn't exist. The wood pile by my house that I went and got, I do not remember. Playing my guitar in church, I do not remember. I don't remember anything in that time period. I got a call from a new employer saying I was hired and got the job. The only thing is, I don't remember quitting my other job, I don't remember applying for a new job, I don't remember the interview. All I know is that now I am in a new job making less money and I don't know how or why I got there.
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