Posted by laima on November 28, 2006, at 22:09:14
In reply to Re: Difference between Ativan and Valium? » laima, posted by Quintal on November 28, 2006, at 21:26:36
"Abusing" or not is a matter of perspective- I had a few panic episodes where I took more, but the doctors found THAT reasonable. Eventually, day to day, the prescribed amounts did zero, even as they were steadily raised, and I'd take more more often in order to achieve the same result of "no excessive anxiety" and therefore run out early. It was a pretty mutual decision that there was a problem, and the drug was the problem for me. I don't think it's a good feeling at all to feel that dependent on a substance (in short supply) to feel ok.Seriously, I believe I started at .5 clonpoin, and that would really be a doozy, but eventually I was prescribed up to 2 mg, and sometimes some xanax along with it during the day- and it did nothing but stave off the worst of a withdrawal. Four to five years later I could "abuse" 4mg clonopin and still feel perfectly anxious and sleepless. Once I was on a plane-in-a-thunderstorm and took 7mg and still panicked. That doesn't seem right.
Never hallucinated on ambien. But I tended not to go to sleep with it either, and definately acted bizarrely. That was a very brief trial, I mortified myself with the things I did, said, and wrote. So if you saw any really dumb posts from me from last summer- you know why now!
> So were you actively abusing benzos laima or had you simply developed tolerance to prescribed doses?
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> I have access to amphetamine and pot too but I don't feel like using them. I guess that's because they don't make me feel much better in the way benzos and opiates do, in fact they often made me feel much worse. I think you may be right about alcohol. It is a worry for me also as I reiscovered it last week. I found drink quite repulsive during benzo withdrawal but it feels different now. It's still not as good to me as benzos were though.
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> >Neither were were sleeping pills like ambien: yes I acted weird- because they didn't make me/induce me to go to sleep
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> Did you ever hallucinate on Ambien when you were in that 'hypnagogic' state as it's called? I saw elves!
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> Q
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