Posted by gardenergirl on November 2, 2006, at 17:35:34
In reply to Thank you all » ed_uk, posted by johnnyj on November 2, 2006, at 16:54:09
> Today has been a very hard day for me. Because it feels like I am not a good person. I tend to blame myself for everything but today was not all my fault.
It certainly does sound like that was an awful experience. I can relate to feeling like it's your fault and/or that there's something wrong with you because someone else treated you poorly. Good for you for thinking through this rationally and recognizing that it's *his* problem, not yours. And your comment about the black eye, I think you're probably right. That was a good clue.
Despite how lousy your appt. went, I bet it feels pretty good to find yourself looking at it with clear eyes and not taking it all onto yourself. :)
As far as that doc...what a jerk! I'm sorry you had to experience that. But I agree with Ed, the upside is that you won't have to deal with him again, and it gives you the opportunity to find someone who will work *with* you instead of *at* you.