Posted by lepus on October 19, 2006, at 2:55:08
In reply to Re: Help with meds phobia » lepus, posted by Racer on October 19, 2006, at 1:27:43
Thanks for your responses everyone.
Racer - Right now my biggest fear is a heightening of anxiety. I'm just not sure I could take it. Okay, well I would probably be able to take it but it would be struggle. I've never been this bad in my life with anxiety. I'm at the end of my rope and I don't want a medication making the anxiety issues worse.
The worst reaction I had was when a doctor decided to start me on high doses of Depakote and Seroquel . I took my first dose and tried to go to sleep. I needed to get up to use the bathroom. When I rose from bed all of the sudden my heart was racing so quickly that I called 911. Apparently nothing was wrong except that I was on too high of a dose and became too sedated. I do not want a repeat of that experience. I've been in the ER 3 times this past year with the panic attacks. I never want to see an ER again.
So, I guess that's my fear...another ER trip.
Whether I respond better to reason or emotion depends on the day. Tonight I just need to know it is going to be okay and I am going to at least be able to return to my normal level of dysfunction. Oh, how I miss it! I miss the days of just feeling uncomfortable in malls or places where I didn't have an easy exit. Now the entire world feels like a place from which I need an easy exit. Of course no such exit exists.
Funny you bring up the Flintstones vitamin story...I have trouble taking vitamins too! You were fortunate to have such a caring and understanding friend.
This is all so new to me. Well, anxiety isn't new to me. I've been dealing with it for 20 years but this level of anxiety is new to me. I've completely fallen apart.
Anyway, thank you everyone.
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