Posted by Jost on September 24, 2006, at 18:55:23
In reply to Re: Time for Maoi -- Other stuff too., posted by bassman on September 24, 2006, at 16:49:02
Phillipa, Until today, you have said you were very interested in trying Emsam.
You've said this a lot, for the last month or two. And I think you have really meant it.
You've also said that luvox, while it worked well for you at a higher dose in the past, was not something that you could tolerate at therapeutic doses. I'm not sure of the history of the feelings and experiences you've had with luvox. However, more recently, you've said that benzos are the only meds you trust, and that luvox is one that you'd rather stop.
I support your taking Luvox, or Emsam, or any other AD or treatment that you think will help.
But, as Scott says, you need to take a clear direction, follow through, and see what happens.
I would only add that you need to take that direction and fight against all the second-guessing, revising your strategy in midcourse, and lowering the med again with out an adequate trial, only to find yourself stymied, and at a standstill.
Given the timing of these huge doubts, I have to ask: are you undermining yourself here? pulling the support out from under your determination to carry out a decision you've made?
If so, this is a dilemma that has emotional, and psychological underpinings. One that needs to be addressed, so that you can move forward.
Isn't Scott's suggestion of therapy, someone to talk to, to help you sort out your reactions, and your best interests, one that makes sense here? Even if you take Emsam, or take Luvox, there seem to be some issuess from your past that are getting in your way here. One that don't need to.
Jost
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