Posted by willyee on September 3, 2006, at 0:13:30
In reply to Re: Terrified to stop taking my antidepressants » willyee, posted by Phillipa on September 2, 2006, at 22:15:00
> Willyee real story. When I had my third child 30years ago I wanted to breast feed her and knew I couldn't as I was on benzos seconal my OB-GYN prescribed, good red wine my pdoc prescribed. I thought since she had had surgery and was in the hospital hernia. I decided now's the time to stop the meds. I quit them all at once. The hospital said I might have a seizure but I did it anyway for two weeks amount of time she was in the hospital. I slept most of the time. Felt like I was walking on a boat when I got up. But I did it and when done was only on 5mg of valium. See the docs didn't know what they do today. So a slow withdrawal would probably work. And meds are messing with our brains as you said about Parker and the effexor. Love Phillipa
I wouldent be surprised if i woke up tommorrow to hear in the news that these drugs were found to be extremly toxic to the brain.
With that said,when i wasnt so absorbed into such deep doses and highly druged like i am now,and i was on a much smaller single dose of parnate,i stopped,i remember having a bottle of parnate,a huge one in my closet for a long time.
I promised i was going natural,i had severance from a high end job who outsourced,i was in school for a few hours a day which i enjoyed,and i had a steady girlfriend who came over all the time.
I was determined to go natural,i began a cardio program,along with my normal weight training,i bought some natural nutrients i had read about,i tried to come in prepared.
Thinking back it was one of the worst years i ever had,i remember every morning was a tremdonous struggle,i became so self invovled with my own struggle that after 6 years right under my nose i was ignoring my girlfriend and she left.
I also for the first,and only time since,got into a major car accident on the NJ turnpike,in a geo tracker doing 90 mph which isnt a lot if you ride that highway,the trucks on it will ride over you if your not doing at least 70,they own it.
Finaly one day i felt so bad,i just said im going back on meds,i thought maybe if i were more strict i could have a better response.Funny thing is i re-started parnate on a single 10 mg dose,and on day 4 woke up with that adrenaline rush,i remeber the drug stayed active the entire day,i even drove out to meet a girl i had been talking too,on my way home i almost balled thinking this was gonna be permanent and i was gonna be ok.
Well obviously it wasnt,and thats just it,for me no drug,no combo,ever stays,its like working out,the theory applies for me i have to keep tricking my brain by lowering a dose,highing it,etc,to keep it working,and in all honesty im exhausted,i cant play this game anymore,its beaten me up pretty bad.
My father once said to me its good i do workout because he cant believe the stuff hes seen me go through and come out looking ok.Luckly for me the outside hasent shown the beating yet,but if it does its gonna be a sad time for me.
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