Posted by finelinebob on August 20, 2006, at 23:56:31
In reply to I'm the person having thought of suicide, posted by RN320 on August 20, 2006, at 18:08:34
I don't think you're friends are as educated as you (or they) think.
Gimme their phone numbers -- I'll educate them.
My best friend in grad school thought all grad students should be put on medication. So many demands, so much humiliation, all to join a country club. But then again, we were in a psych program and even though it wasn't a clinical program, we had enough general psych background to recognize institutionalized dysfunction when we saw it.
I can see where you're headed, tho. Except I was an undergrad. Treatment-resistant depression --i.e., I was resistant to getting it treated or even acknowledging it. First term finals week ... my last grandparent dies. Second term, finals week ... my great aunt who babysat for my parents so much she practically raised me and my brothers dies. First term, sophomore year -- an uncle I was close to enters the university hospital and every time I visit, his condition gets worse. He dies. Proof, obiviously, that I'm the cause of all this. My grades are tanking. I'm beginning to realize that my dream for my life is dying with my grades, and second semester sophomore year hits with me wondering, "who's next?'
My mom gets in a traffic accident, her heart stops for 4 minutes plus, the doctors come out of hours of surgery not knowing if she'll live the night and, if she does, whether she'll be anything more than a vegetable.
Different but similar paths. Took me a few more failures to make my attempt. I failed miserably. At which point my life became absurdly comic, and I became the leading authority on failure at a university where a B+ in a class could keep you out of that university's med school, law school, whatever.
You might not find the traction to stop your slide down that path. If not, then for all of our sakes (if not your own) I hope you fail miserably, too.
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