Posted by jealibeanz on August 10, 2006, at 19:27:01
In reply to Re: Bipolar? Self diagnosis... » jealibeanz, posted by Phillipa on August 10, 2006, at 18:29:54
I have tried Ambien again. I quickly remember why I didn't like it in the first place. I'm one of those who experienced the nightmares, weird actions during semi-awake states, sleepwalking, driving in the middle of the night, ect.
Haha, no I haven't mentioned this to my doc. I'm the one who keeps posting about not being able to breech the topic of depression. Now bipolar? Nope definitely don't know how to just yell that one out!
Besides, it's always a fleeting idea in my head, I'm not confident in it enough to bring it up even if I were comfortable with idea. I can easily be sure that I experience depression, but Bipolar is more ambiguous. It's much more difficult to grasp and diagnose, for me and doctors.
My physical is in a week! Ahhh!!! The only thing I'm really comfortable with is telling him the Lunesta doesn't work now. I'm due for a refill on the Straterra, but I probably need to confess that I stopped it for five days to see if I could sleep better. Since then my moods have been less stable, more crying, more depression. Ughhh... don't think I can do this! Why can't I just have a normal brain?!
However, I find out Monday whether or not I being allowed to stay in school. If I get asked to leave, there's no way I'm going to my doctor appointment because I will be way too embarrassed and ashamed to tell them I wasn't smart enough and couldn't handle school. I'll just end up going off all meds in that case and never seeing a doctor again. (crossing my fingers that I don't fail out!)
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