Posted by rjlockhart on July 20, 2006, at 0:04:25
I dont know how much i am going, or what im about to type but i would really appricaite some responses because this has been bothering me for a very long time.
Since i was a kid, i seemed well from my perceptive, i got people's nerves, well i did. Thats what i can say. I have ADD for fact. But you what thats something im going to conquer. I dont know how to realate very well to people, alot of times in situations i dont know how to get out information, or tell stories, or something that i forgot to tell. Sometimes I lack enthusiasm when i get into a conversation because i feel that i will say it wrong, which i have in the past.... and humiliated me my self many times, thats why it made me the way i am. Alot of times i just dont feel like a have a personality, i feel im just a person "watching" other people.
When i was on stimulants this wasnt the case, i do think this does have something to do with ADD, socially impaired sometimes. But this is something that i want to conquer.
I think when we talk we talk about intrests, conterversy, debates, or just small talk. The reason i dont get into controversal talk is because of insecurites, "did i say it ok?" yea know that stuff. Alot of times i am not motivated to talk, which is kinda uncommon, because its natural to want to talk with people. But thats not the case with me. I have this problem "imprinted" on my head. Socially inhibited.
How do i get out of this?
matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:668497
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